God's Plan, Not Mine.

Do you ever feel like you're drowning in parts of your life? It just sucks you in sometimes and never seems to spit you back out. I've been struggling with motivation for school lately. I've been at it (part-time for several years) going on 5 years. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel because it's become so repititious.

Last semester I thought I could speed things along by overloading myself with classes for this spring, summer and fall of 2011, so that I could graduate in May of 2012. I pumped myself up with excitement and motivation and refused to see the outcome any other way but how I had planned. Today I had a reality check from God. As I sat in my advisors office filling out paperwork for classes I realized how selfish my plans were. I realized that my quick plans to graduate left Colin on my backburner. I understand now that packing my semesters with 15 to 18 hours of classes leaves me no time to enjoy the best part of life: my beautiful blessing Colin.

Even though I will end May 2012 with 3 hours shy of graduating, I walked out of my advisors office feeling an overwhelming sense of peace and contentment. I WILL graduate in 2012.. just not as soon as I had hoped. God's timing and plan is so much more beautiful than my own. HIS plan gives me more quality time with Colin outside of college. HIS plan is perfect and i'm so thankful he showed me that today. I know I'll never look back and regret delaying school for something/someone much more fulfilling.